Things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And people we cant
live without, but have to let go"
I think that included in this should be something about things we need
to know but have no way of getting them. That's my thoughts anyway.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
I'm really struggling
"There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept.
Things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And people we cant
live without, but have to let go"
Things we don't want to know, but have to learn. And people we cant
live without, but have to let go"
Right now...
I just feel like screaming in frustration!!! It's not being able to do
anything to fix this that frustrates me!!!!!!!
anything to fix this that frustrates me!!!!!!!
Holidays
I've really felt the push lately to start making plans for my holidays in July. I have 2 weeks off and I am not going to sit at home and do nothing. I wish I'd saved better this year, but I've been working it out and its amazingly cheap to stay in NZ, at some youth hostels, as little as $17 a night. And flights are cheap too, cheaper than flying from Melbourne to Queensland. I'm thinking of flying to Auckland, then not sure where, then to Greymouth, Mt Cook and Christchurch. I'll have a few days in each place. So looking forward to it! (Wish I could share this with you James, and get your advice on it)
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
I'm sure I sound like a broken record...
But isn't it a compliment to tell someone they are attractive? I
always thought it was a nice thing to say, not a bad thing. But I
guess I don't know anymore...
And WHY on earth do I love someone who doesn't talk to me?
I just can't seem to stop, the feelings always come back, no matter
what he does. I guess I know there's more to him than the eye can see.
I love him, I just do and I feel so overwhelmed with this love and
with this longing to protect him and look after him and to be with
him. Is this what real love is? He is by far the most important person
to me. I can't look after him and take care of him God, so please can
you? I really feel like you've put it on my heart to show him
compassion and care, I've failed to do that at times, and now it's out
my hands really. All I can do is commit him to you. Please soften his heart towards you and towards
me. Thanks.
always thought it was a nice thing to say, not a bad thing. But I
guess I don't know anymore...
And WHY on earth do I love someone who doesn't talk to me?
I just can't seem to stop, the feelings always come back, no matter
what he does. I guess I know there's more to him than the eye can see.
I love him, I just do and I feel so overwhelmed with this love and
with this longing to protect him and look after him and to be with
him. Is this what real love is? He is by far the most important person
to me. I can't look after him and take care of him God, so please can
you? I really feel like you've put it on my heart to show him
compassion and care, I've failed to do that at times, and now it's out
my hands really. All I can do is commit him to you. Please soften his heart towards you and towards
me. Thanks.
A few thoughts
New iPod. I didn't expect to get a new one so soon. The other (same)
one I got back in February, and it's just dissapeared. Made me pretty
angry, there was more on it than music you know? I guess it's good
that I at least can afford to get another one, that's something. But
still...
So wish I could see James right now, I just want to hold him close. A
few work girls were talking about relationships today and one said
when she first started seeing her partner, she wasn't very attracted
to him, but that came with time. James has given me a total of about 2
hours of face to face time. (I'm not counting the movie) How is that
long enough to make a decision about me? It's not. I wish he'd given
me more of a chance. And also, the more I think about things, the more
I'm pretty sure (even if his no was really just a no) that there are
other things going on with him. Please God, heal his heart. I know
he's been hurt. Protect him and shelter him. Please open his eyes to
me, to the love I have for him.
one I got back in February, and it's just dissapeared. Made me pretty
angry, there was more on it than music you know? I guess it's good
that I at least can afford to get another one, that's something. But
still...
So wish I could see James right now, I just want to hold him close. A
few work girls were talking about relationships today and one said
when she first started seeing her partner, she wasn't very attracted
to him, but that came with time. James has given me a total of about 2
hours of face to face time. (I'm not counting the movie) How is that
long enough to make a decision about me? It's not. I wish he'd given
me more of a chance. And also, the more I think about things, the more
I'm pretty sure (even if his no was really just a no) that there are
other things going on with him. Please God, heal his heart. I know
he's been hurt. Protect him and shelter him. Please open his eyes to
me, to the love I have for him.
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