Thanks God, for working things out in regards to my leave, and for
cool people who are organised when it comes to things like rosters and
such!! Now I can really look forward to my time off.

Having lunch in rainy Thornbury. The day's actually going pretty well.
I am minding Felix till 2pm and then going else where. He hasn't been
up to too much mischief. Thanks God. Please can the rest of the day go
well? Please God, can everything be clear and organised? Thanks for
all you do for me God. I know I don't say thankyou often enough.
In other exciting news (for me) I've recieved a pay rise! That's not
something I've ever had happen before. It's only about a dollar extra
an hour, but it all adds up, and the centre owner has been very
diligent and organised with the group certificates. Yesterday was the
first day of the financial year and I got mine today! I love when
things are as stress free and simple as that. I feared this would be
another battle. Thanks for that God. Now I just need the leave thing
to be sorted. I'm really trying not to stress about it though. Please
God work it out for me. Ta.
My weekend is something I'm looking forward to. (even though I've just
had two days off) Dad is making me a book case, so I need to clear my
floor in order to get it in. (& I'm sick of living in a mess) and I'm
cooking lots of things for lunch Sunday. I hope I'm successful. No
deserts this week, so no disasters. Hurrah! I am planning on a cake
and a Turkish delight icecream for Sunday though, so I'll see how I go.
Hope you're having a nice day James.

(I really should have brought some chocolate with me to work, I don't
know how i'm going to last till 7, when I get home!! I'm not buying!
I'm not buying! Money is for NZ!)

I havn't written much in regards to James lately, not because I don't
care, but rather because I'm not sure what to say or do. I really miss
him but at the same time I'm feeling the rejection keenly, and it
hurts. I wish that there was something I could say or do so that we
could be in contact again. And I still feel that sense that I should
'wait and see'. I don't know, maybe its me not facing reality. Off to
bed now, I'm up at 5:30am tomorrow : /
Dear James, I miss you, I love you still. I wish I could see you
sometime. You mean so much to me, more so than anyone else. I want to
hug you and hold your hand, and kiss you goodnight. I want to hear how
your uni semester has gone and whether you've got your results yet.
I'm praying for success for you in this.
Rachel

Ps, If I could see you, you could do all the asking/paying for/leading in this if you'd like. (I know that's how you like things to be.)

I'm excited!!

I've found all these great vintage embroidery patterns online and I feel all inspired! Christmas presents this year will be hand made. I'm thinking of this for my nephew, although I like the M and his name starts with J, so I thought I could sew Jesse into the monkey's hat and keep the M, making it an alphabet cushion? I'll see. I'm off to get some material!

Actually not too bad a day. I usually am quite willing to go to work, but today I really didn't feel like it. Especially while on the train/bus I just wanted to stay on all day. Angelica was pretty good, despite being a bit naughty at lunch time. I managed to get a whole bowl of lunch into her, usually it isn't very easy. She was so lovely after sleep time though, she was happy to just sit and chatter away and let me hold her. I love that little girl. Sadly I'm not minding Felix on Friday, I'm doing a longer day elsewhere in the centre. I hope he goes okay. The girl who's looking after him is a 15 year old school girl, doing some casual work in her holidays.  I hope she does a good job. He can be a handful and takes a while to adjust to people. Please God, watch over him and please keep him safe. (and Jaimee too)
I've been feeling slightly less stressed about my leave. The rosters (which have no dates on them) are the same, but I looked at the year at a glance calendar in the office today and my holidays are down. Please God can it be worked out? Thanks.
The next two days I have off. I'm not sure what I'll do, more sewing probably...I was getting annoyed before because I'm tired and can't continue.
Miss you James...

Don't worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all he has done. If you do this, you will experience God's peace. Phil. 4:6-7

Please God, can this leave thing be sorted? Perhaps I'm making an issue when there isn't one, but I'm worried about it. Please be in this. Thanks for all you do for me.

Feeling really stressed. The leave I applied for in April and was told
I had ( saw STB write it on the year at a glance calander when i
asked) has not been put on the roster and that jolly woman has gone on
her own holiday. This is so like her. I'm shaking my head in absolute
disgust here. If I don't get the leave I've been granted, I will quit.
I am not taking this. Please God, can you sort this out? I've put
money into this and have been looking forward to it. Please take this
anger, worry and fear from me. I don't know what else to do.
I really wish I could talk to you James, and could get your advice. I just
miss you.