I went to bed last night feeling lousy, and Ive woken up feeling lousy. I really wish I didn't have to go to work today and it's a long day too, not the usual 5 hours with hasa. He'd better be good today, I'm not feeling like being treated like a punching bag. I don't know about anything anymore, just that I hate feeling like this. I don't want to write this anymore, I wish I'd never started. I feel like such an idiot, some of the things I've written....