Goodbye...

I think I'm going to bow out of this whole thing, gracefully I wish, but I feel anything but graceful. I think writing this and reading his twitter, it's stopping me from facing reality, from moving forward, it keeps me thinking and hoping for him. For my own wellbeing I need to stop this. If God chooses to work and allow something to happen in the future then that would be wonderful, but I'm tired of being ignored and hurt. I wish I understood why things ended, but I may never will understand and I need to accept that. I love you James G, I always will, you'll always be very dear to me. Please God, bless him, keep him safe today and always. Work in his heart. Thank you for him.