Had enough!

Another day where I've felt like I'm absolutely dying. I feel like saying 'I really didn't ask for this crappy life. Will things ever change and be better- and I don't mean in heaven, I mean here on earth?' Its just one thing after another, constantly. And the only thing that's keeping me here is a lack of money- or else I'd just take off and never look back. I'd leave everything behind and make a new life for myself. I know I should look forward to heaven where everything will be perfect, but God- I want to be loved by someone here on earth, just one person. Is that too much to ask? I know that you love me, but I want romantic love.