Friday, June 18, 2010

Feeling like rubbish. I asked, he's said no in his usual way, and I am
absolutly not doing this with him or anyone else ever again. I guess
it was inevitable, although I thought because I asked God, and
believed that you could work in him, that this last time might be
different, obviously not. I've had this all wrong I feel, what I've
known but havn't wanted to face, that this was never going to happen.
How rediculous and stupid I feel.
Please God, only you know where I'm coming from with this and why he's
meant so much to me. Please help to walk away now, even though it's
hard. I can't do it on my own, I've tried and it's just too hard.
Thanks. And please give me patience with L too. Thanks.

(will also add that the person who was ignoring me last night
apologised this morning, thanks God. I didn't even ask, but you knew
what I needed)

1 comment:

  1. Hi, Rachel! I found your site through "Life in Sandals." Thank you for praying for my dad, and for making so many sweet comments on our website through the years. I'm sorry you are going through all this with James. I pray that the Lord will comfort your heart, and that you will find extra joy in Him. Jesus will always love you, and will never turn you away or reject you.

    "Though the fig tree should not blossom
    And there be no fruit on the vines,
    Though the yield of the olive should fail
    And the fields produce no food,
    Though the flock should be cut off from the fold, and there be no cattle in the stalls,
    Yet I will exult in the LORD,
    I will rejoice in the God of my salvation.
    The Lord GOD is my strength,
    And He has made my feet like hinds' feet,
    And makes me walk on my high places.
    Habakkuk 3:17-19

    Love in Jesus,
    Katie Johnson