absolutly not doing this with him or anyone else ever again. I guess
it was inevitable, although I thought because I asked God, and
believed that you could work in him, that this last time might be
different, obviously not. I've had this all wrong I feel, what I've
known but havn't wanted to face, that this was never going to happen.
How rediculous and stupid I feel.
Please God, only you know where I'm coming from with this and why he's
meant so much to me. Please help to walk away now, even though it's
hard. I can't do it on my own, I've tried and it's just too hard.
Thanks. And please give me patience with L too. Thanks.
(will also add that the person who was ignoring me last night
apologised this morning, thanks God. I didn't even ask, but you knew
what I needed)