I feel really bad today

When it comes to James, I have no self control. I can't seem to stop emailing him and then when I get no response I feel hurt and bad and like some crazy person who can't let this go. Every few weeks this happens. I'm trying so hard God, but this mountain that I have to climb in order to get over him, its just too hard. I can't do it God.  Please take me away from this, take him from my thoughts. I don't want to do this anymore God. Please help me.